What is Goin On Now…

I hate to say this, but I am still under the weather. Currently the Dr. still has not cleared me to work. Actually one of the back Drs.
that I see has told me I can never work again. He also said that I should avoid surgery at all costs, if I do have surgery I would be
in a wheelchair by 55. How insane is that?!?!?! Any kind of movement kills my back, a little walk around the store and I am out the next
day.

So what does that mean for my blog? It means I will be posting inspiration, little shoot challenges, and some awesome freebies that I find.
I hope to partake in those challenges myself. The challenges that I have been finding all over the place seem easy and a bit fun. I hope that
they will inspire some to get out and shoot something daily. Not being able to work and shoot is extremely depressing, but we have to still find
joy and attempt to shoot still even if it is a quick phone photo.

Also it appears that my blog mainly gets read on Monday, so I think that I will be switching up the posting. I have my posts set up for
Saturday, so I will be changing it to have my post come out on Sunday.

Update On What is Going On With Me…..

So here lately I have not been able to really shoot. For a while now, I have been having some major back problems. The problems have been going on for about two years, just last year they started getting a lot worse. I went through tons of X-rays, and MRIs. I went through a couple of different doctors, physical therapists and then finally back specialists,and backs surgeons. They came to the conclusions that I have Degenerative Disc Disease also known as DDD. IT IS HELL!!!!!!! The interesting thing that has been said is that the discs will fix themselves. From everything that I have  read is that it will never go away, it will just get worse. Also apparently I am a little young to have these issues happening.

Now the different back doctors, they have said that surgery will just make it worse in the long run. I do not know how much worse can it be? Well those lovely doctors have me on a couple different medications in hopes of them working and that be that.

I am already ready for it to be over. I do not care how, but I am done.

Skin, Cancer, Removal, More? Pain…..

The title says it all. I do have to say that I have not been very open on my public Facebook for all to see about this. I do not want the pity, the OH GOD I AM SO SORRY, the fake I am here for yous. There are only a few who mean it. I figured out I share here because there is like literally no one reads my blog lol.

Soooooooo…….

Yesterday I went in and had the first spot removed got stitches on the inside and on the outside. Thankfully they numbed the area, but they did not numb so well I still felt it a bit. I tried to tell them. I kind of feel like a sewn up gutted fish. So I am glad that it was on my back. As I still have to run the house I pose a huge risk of ripping these damn stitches. YAY ME! I feel the pulls in most of the movements, the bending, moving my arms, and such. Why does it have to be in such an awkward place?! I’ll live,  I think I need to throw my own pity party right now while I sit here in annoying pain. They said oh take Tylenol you will be okay, it will not hurt bad. I am sitting here thinking you just cut me open gutted me, stitched inside and out. It is not going to hurt bad? That makes literally no sense in my mind. Does it yours?

Of course word gets around quick. My father calls. I talk to him for a few minutes tell him about all of it, he even tells me they should have given something more than take Tylenol for at least a couple days after. I talk to him about how I might change doctors because I feel disconnected with mine. If you have ever felt that with a doctor you will understand if not I hope you never do. Its like they do not care and you are just dismissed. I found out that since I do not need to be in the sun, that I should be taking Vitamin D supplements from a friend, FROM A FRIEND! not my Dr. Not the person that is supposed to be looking after me. This friend even is in the sun and does not get enough, so imaging my lack there of. How insane is that?

In two weeks I get stitches removed, and more results read. Then in two months I get my first body check.